did i not see it coming?
too blinded by the colors of you
now the air is heavy
with carrying the pain that presses on me
did you not hear my song?
overshadowed by the fragrance of the flowers budding around you
breathing shallow, bursting,breaking
yet you still are unaware
for there is a light that has caught your stare
almost breathless
but why does hope prevail?
maybe indeed love
is stronger than death itself
and so i tell myself.
so i sing my song in the night
until the dew drops with the coming of the dawn
and a whisper echoes a promise
he will hear.
When I get to have kids, I sure have lots to say to them about loving someone.I hope I can still be there when they first fall in love and suffer from their first heartbreak.Hmnn,as much as I don't want them to,I'm sure it will come to pass and I know,they will learn a lot from it.But I sure am going to be there when they cry.And when the hurting gets really bad,I am going to hug them real tight,cause that is exactly what God is doing to me right now.Making my feet secure and levelling the paths beneath me.Thank you Jesus.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Swim
Swim
I don't know how to swim.That and many other fears have seem to have placed me in somewhat like a cage for most of my growing up years.Connection? Not knowing how to swim just made me think of how much I seem to have missed and have been missing because I am holding on to my fears.Of water?Not really.Maybe,drowning. But really, i think it is rejection.Lately, I have been contemplating a lot about my own self-esteem.What does it really mean,to be living what you believe.For I have stared in the mirror too many times and have preached to myself about who I am in God's eyes.But only in the water,do I really get to see how much I have learned and have not. It is a joy and a relief though, that expectations not met and goals not achieved does not exactly spell failure.It is only failure,when we keep from trying.But it helps so much to hear that from Someone,you know you could really trust.One who will never judge you for the mistakes you have and will commit. Jesus,asked Peter of the depth of his love for him three times.Same number of times that Peter denied knowing Him.His grace is always enough,so there should be no room for fear anymore.I am preaching to myself again,my reflection on the computer monitor,but at the same time,I am actually living it right now.So thankful for that grace.And...i'm literally,learning how to swim.
I don't know how to swim.That and many other fears have seem to have placed me in somewhat like a cage for most of my growing up years.Connection? Not knowing how to swim just made me think of how much I seem to have missed and have been missing because I am holding on to my fears.Of water?Not really.Maybe,drowning. But really, i think it is rejection.Lately, I have been contemplating a lot about my own self-esteem.What does it really mean,to be living what you believe.For I have stared in the mirror too many times and have preached to myself about who I am in God's eyes.But only in the water,do I really get to see how much I have learned and have not. It is a joy and a relief though, that expectations not met and goals not achieved does not exactly spell failure.It is only failure,when we keep from trying.But it helps so much to hear that from Someone,you know you could really trust.One who will never judge you for the mistakes you have and will commit. Jesus,asked Peter of the depth of his love for him three times.Same number of times that Peter denied knowing Him.His grace is always enough,so there should be no room for fear anymore.I am preaching to myself again,my reflection on the computer monitor,but at the same time,I am actually living it right now.So thankful for that grace.And...i'm literally,learning how to swim.
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